Today I feel so peevish.
From the time that i’m in mentoring class at church….
What were those two girls in front of me do? Oh Godness..
They played their gadget while the mentoring class take place. I’m so annoyed
of them, her head just swinged made my vision so disturbed while me and the
class watching the pastor’s message on tv. Rgghh
The more when the class divide into several sharing group.
Wussshh.. I searched my mentor, and I felt I’m like ignored.. then when I got
my sharing group, I did stupid thing, I heared the devil whispered on my ears
to had ask the mentor why she ignored me
and don’t searched me. Ahh moron! Why did I asked that with unfriendly vision?
Whereas the mentor not fault. Egoistic had gnaw me, why i became emotional?
This not my character!
The last when my cash really through and I remembered for my
friend’s vow the she will pay her debt tomorrow. In fact when she confirmed
that she can’t pay for tomorrow because her parents send her monthly cost on
Friday, I feel so ahhh… and I did the moron thing again, I acted like I’m so
angry to her, she must thinks that I’m so angry to her. At that time I’m
sensitive because I’m worried my foods stock at my kost already few, and I
really don’t have money in my hands, actually I have reserve but I can’t use it
because it’s for my upcoming State University Test.
Then the holy spirit whispered me and said : “Briegitta my
daughter, never worry for what will you eat tomorrow, but effort to do good
things today, you knew that I’m strengthen moses when he are on way to mydian,
i protected him and i gave him food. You just don’t eat from physically bread
but rather you eat from ‘bread’ from God. That moment I feel my heart so
calmed.
Pardon me God of today, I want and I can control my emotion
better, because I don’t wanna be a lady with anger character. Because today God
was said to me “ Full your heart with love” (Rome12:10)
xx
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